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do you ever get the feeling of dun feel like talking?
Well, i do...
The feeling of talking and getting all the laughter n critize for pronouncing wrongly is making me so work up about what i say. Whenever i wan to say something, i just got to let it revolve around my head for a minute or so before i dare to let it out. And every word i let out of my mouth, I'm taking a risk of my life. Haiz... Tired of speaking in this way.. at times, i just suddenly feel so like shutting myself down. When i'm out, i feel so like going home. Just don't feel like going out anymore...
I miss the time when i could talk to my this little god bro with fast smooth speak. He doesn't really correct me. Neither will he laugh at me. We had so much fun talking. Shooting each other with words... He seem missing.. Maybe too busy with gf. Ah.. well, doesn't really blame him. Haha..
I was just hoping you people out there know when to stop. When is enough is enough... Different people have different level of tolerance. Mine isn't high. And I have bare it for a very long time. Seems like no one knows what is enough...
Maybe my god sis is feeling too. I'm not sure. Well if she is, I just got to say, I know how u r feeling... Sorry... ...
Aye..
12:44 PM
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Well, I'm back for a new post. Miss me?
Well, lots have happen. Getting into a job, and out and in and out again... =(
But it's experience that most important... The money doesn't matter. Whee~
Well, have been playing a new game call Hyper relay. It's like playing mini games and gaining experience points to get into the top 100 place. fighting with the others. Apart from that, i'm also playing MS(sea) and MS(global)... well.. getting bored of these games...
Nothing much to say about the pass few days. Just lots of upset stuff.. Well, as some of you might know, I'm kind of upset over my god brothers... =( always looking up to me just to find my sister... Haiz... =(
Then there's yesterday, my sis n mother quarrel. WHAT The.. Quarrel over a packet of Ribena... crapz... somemoe i got drag in =( haiz.. End up i got scold... Then mother say "Next time you don't buy anything for her! She doesn't deserve it!" and my sister say "Ask her f**k off" Oh gosh.. I buy 6packets of ribena home.. and they quarrel over 1 packet...?! I buy de next time can buy some more... WHy need to quarrel over it.. Argh..
Then today... It's such a sad day.... It sux totally... Well, in the morning, i woke up, and i miss breakfast... well.. because partly because i suddenly dun feel like eating the food my parents buy back... Haiz... then my father scolded me.. Saying "Why you so rude?" Oh great.. After today, I'm going to be extra Polite to all! Just like being polite to strangers. Happy?! Well.., i was so angry and my tummy is aching me.. so i went back to sleep. Then woke up at 1.10pm. Then i went to bed. And practically lock my self in the room. Until around 4+, i went out and vent my anger on my organ. And I nearly cried. Cause i was playing guan huai fang shi(not sure correct spellign or not). Practicing lai.. cause i play organ but i trying the piano de. Then... my grandmother was sitting on the sofa and saying giving birth to son is so .. ... ... cause she just had a quarrel with my uncle.. you know, the song is so sad den she say the sad sad thing... haiz... den nearly cry. ah.. anyway i never cry la... So ok.. well, den I stay there playing n playing till 6+ den i went to my parents room and look at my sis play... Den i went onto hyper... then tada~! Here I am writing blog ... Well, very full now though never eat much >.>
Ah.. don't talk liao. Happy reading ^^
7:46 PM
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hehe~ I'm back from more. Who knows there's more at the back of the story xD
Vengeance is like a circle of deaths
Even the worst people can have some good left in their hearts. Killing is not the answer to problems, it is the source.
life never lets us have a quiet moment.
You can never understand women. They’re the strangest creatures on earth.
They say they want something, and then when you get it for them, there’s always something wrong. You just can’t get it right. It’s like the law of gravity.
Well.. think that's all.. hmm kind of late now xD 2.20am liao..haha.. but finishing soon... keke~ Hanging on there.
12:56 AM
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Just some stuff i read from a fanfic and wanna share with
you guys out there ;)
Q:“Why is life so complicated?”
A:“It has to be complicated in order to be simple.
For if it was not complicated, then how would we know
what was simple and what was not if we had nothing to
compare it to?”
A:“Why is it so difficult to love?”
B:“Sometimes true love can only be gained after
many hardships.”
A:“And if they don’t overcome these obstacles?
Is the love they share not true?”
A:“And what is love? Sacrifices? Pains? Sufferings?”
B:Love can’t be described by one word alone. To me,
love is a flavor of life. It’s about giving up...
sacrificing but also gaining in return. But I guess
it does often end in tragedy.”
A:“Why is that when two people are truly happy together,
that someone or something just has to come along and
ruin everything? Why can’t the rest of the world just
be happy for them?”
B:“The course of love never did run smooth,”
“He didn’t fear death. He embraced it. He said that if it were his time to go, then no matter how hard he struggled, the final outcome would always be the same. Might as well let things be, he once told me.”
Love is like a rose, beautiful, yet full of thorns.”
These wounds won’t seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
And though you're still with me
When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I’d fight away all of your fears
And I’ve held your hands through all of these years
Well, it 12.39am now.. so it's like 1hr+ since i have started writing this entry which is on some phrases i have gotten from one of the fanfic I'm reading. Well, i'll stop the entry here. Got to finish reading quick ;) hehe.. I'm like there's still 26 chapters to the ending? and there's only 50 chapters xD
Well, night night~
I've been alone all along
11:29 PM
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Hey everybody~!!!
Well, wanted to write a post yesterday. But the freaking computer in my room won't let me enter an entry. Oh well...
Let's start with my sad yesterday
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Well, met kel at 12 at airport. Was going to try out getting a job at bengawan solo. Then went there and the people there gave me us a card -_-" Ask us to call their area manager. What?! make me go all the way to airport den get 1 card only... >.< Oh well... Then after that, me n kel was practically quarreling over who to call Mr Hoon(the area manager) end up, kel call the main line. But to no success, he wasn't there.. So i ended up calling his hp (we made a duel on that her calling the main line me callign the hp :( ) aye.. anyway, Mr hoon asked us to meet him for an interview between 4.30pm to 5.30pm.. wAH!! Den nothing to do.. so went to kel's hse n slp. haha... so when the time came, we went to pasir ris bengawan for the interview.. And who knows.. Mr Hoon is not there =( So this lady called erm.. what's her name ? I.... xD haha.. apologise.. haha.. anyway, i got the job.. kel didn't want it. i guess partly cause the pay too little den far.. hmm.. after that, we went to bugis, kel wanted to go to the place where erm.. dunno what's the shop name.. haha.. den i thought of meeting my mother. So from parco, we walk to my mother office. When crossing the road, there's this voice that rang my head "The rain is making me melt" Den i was like 'Hey! this voice so familiar. WT..!! rain can make him melt. is he a guy -_-?' Den i turn back.. and wah surprise surprise. there stands val n per. haha.. chief... Anyway, I'll just fast forward.. My mum n Kel gang up to bully me!!! *sob* *sob* Who want to save me?!!!! >.<
Today
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Woke up early in the morning... and left house at 7.30 for work. Hmmz... Well, you can say there's lots to do. But i don't mind. What i mind is serving the customers. x.x" if you know me well, I hate serving strangers!!! Haha.. So I took this job, "overcome my fear" sob.. what's the best thing? I wasn't scare when waiting for the shop to open. But I'm SCARE now!! x.x" chills running down my back.. *shivers* Ah!!! Tml how?! Need to serve more people >.< haiz.. haha.. abit dun feel like doing... need to serve ppl but.. cannot so irressponible... say work must work mah.. Hmm.. anyway, met this gal studying in tp applied science school in the shop too. But she more experience. She work 2weeks liao. Then she memorise every code for the stuff. Wah.. hao xian mu ta. haiz... Thinks abt tml.. AH!! Better not.. oh well..
Tata~!
7:30 PM
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Early in the morning, at around 9, i woke up.
At the very moment i stand up from my bed... My head start to spin.. And i fell on my sis bed.. Haiz.. dunno what happen.. den i kneel up. But my head is still spinning... Craps.. Anyway, I kneel down there for like forever.. Den i give up.. it's still spinning.. Like there's a ton of weigh on my head. I just stood n walk out. Struggling to walk up straight, i walk to my parents room. And started to on the computer n stuff...
At around 10+ I'm sitted in front of the computer playing MS. Well, it's a new game for me anyway. I played till 12.44 and went to bath. Rushed to TM to meet the gals at 1.30. I reached there at 1.35 or so. Well.. guess what? I'm first. LOl.. Anyway, we went to eat pizza hut and walk. Soon, HN when back to work and the rest of us landed in starbucks. Flipping through the job list. Hmm.. well.. the job stuff have to wait till monday. Anyway, at 6.36, i went to take bus 72.
I'm suppose to be like meeting my cousin A(Ah Boy korkor) at YCK mrt station to head cousin M(mei mei)'s school concert. Well, M invited me to go cause she's afraid A will be lonely. So.. fine i went. Anyway, i reach the mrt station at 7.40. (PS: The concert starts at 7.30 *Sorry meimei.. was late*) No sign of A.. So i called him. And he told me.. His still working!!! WHat?! So now i'm ended up going to the thing alone... bla... though i like being alone.. but i hate being alone outside... craps.. Haiz.. I should have listened to my brain and skip the concert... x.x Anyway... I didn't. and so.. i figure my way into the place. Haha.. lucky me, i walk the right place. But sad to say, i realise i have missed my cousin's performance (guzheng)
When i went in, they were at the prize-giving... the top normal student n stuff... and follow up is the modern dance.. Hmm.. Looking at their modern dance, it remembered the modern dance i have selected to dance.. They look SO different... gosh... After that was the chinese dance. The title i forgot. But the meaning of the title is how this mother brought the son up. Haha... well.. at first look, i was like.. Mongolian(not sure how to spell) dancing... dotz... after that is the malay dance i think.. I'm not really sure.. Oh well, don't blame me. I'm writing this with my memories... Anyway, about the dance.. Some crazy guys were making lots of whistle(wrong spelling too..) -_-" And the music they use, it sounds like some game's background music XD Ah.. there's another performance den a 20mins break... After that, there's a guitar performance. Performing 2 songs. Forgot the 1st title(something ... joy to the world).. the 2nd title is "Everything I do, I do it for you" Hmm... during the performance, the audience started to clap.. I was sitting there like.. "Shhh..!!! stupid people... Clap so loud.. can't hear the music at all..." Bla.. some people suddenly went SHH!! I was so greatful. Haha.. got to hear parts of the 2nd song. Nice!! Anyway, the last performance is a band performance.. Hmm.. They played 3 songs. the 1st one is about war n peace The 2nd one is about the god n devil quarrelling ? The 3rd one is some songs add together one of the song is stand by me that song bring u back to the 60s according to the hosts... Hmm.. well..
When i reach home, i heard that i'm going orchard tml.. going to Lido?? whatever that is.. Haiz.. I hate orchard. Why they going orchard >=( At first they say tampines one what.. That's why i never say anything.. Idiot.. why orchard... Due to tireness, i'm already abit buay song. Den that got my temper up higher. Haiz... after that, my mother heated some noodles up for me.. And what?! She say she add abit of beehoon.. ARGH!!! I DISLIKE EATING BEEHOON!!! she know that..!! I PREFER HORFUN............. she know that too!!! Den when i look into the bowl.. It's like 3/4 is beehoon 1/4 is horfun.. She still tell me she put little... Den say if dun wan take out the beehoon.. Wah.. craps.. Hungry den like that... >=(
Damn tired... Going to slp...
Just not my day today!!!
Signed off
BadDayGal
10:53 PM
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