2 days ago, went out with YZ and kel. We went to lots of places. First stop was to white sand. Why white sand? Cause I wanted to go there. To their arcade. Upon reaching the arcade, went to play a music game. Hmmm... there lots of memorises with this music game, I miss playing this game with my friend. People would ask why won't I ask her out and play with her then? Reason to this question... I don't really enjoy going out with her now. Especially since after she got into a relationship. She now like playing another game with her bf. Whenever I go out with her, I'll be the lightbulb.. Walking between the 2 of them. Whenever they go arcade, they would look for that game. She seems not so interested in that music game anymore. Once a best friend, I had thought we'll stay that way forever. But seems like what I hope for didn't come true. Maybe you still treat me as your best friend. But the both of us, are never the same. Getting into poly has brought us apart... We'r never like what we used to be before... Days back. Her bf ask me if I would want to go to KBox with them. But I rejected them. So sorry kor.... Just dun wanna feel like a lightbulb anymore... Anyway, after that, we went to orchard. YZ went to buy back. Den went to see HN too. They brought me to eat xiao long bao too... Hmmm... The "legendary xiao long bao" thought really would be very nice... Cause dear dear say until like it's so nice.. But it turn out to be... Hmm... haha... like what dear say... No feeling. =x After that, went to PS. den YZ took the north east line mrt home... I went back to pasir ris... Haha... Legs to tired. In fact, I left house with an injured leg and went home with an still injured and tired leg. =p
Yesterday, went to granny's hse. Then went to tampines. Sis n mum quarrelling... Haiz... Den sis keep saying this that about my mum to me quietly... Why they always like this... Haiz... Then I went to treat them coffee bean.. x.x actually sis pay 10bucks I pay the rest... around 17+++. But well, money not really important. Because the coffee has lessen the hurt in my sis and mum. So was kind of gladful. At night. I was online doing some research. But the stupid computer won't stay online long enough for me to finish my research... Well.. So I work offline. Rephrasing my sentences and stuff.. While doing that, I called kel. Not long later, I put the phone down. Went to bed crying off...
Hmm... The gals went to kbox today. But I don't have the mood... Actually, not feeling the right way. But feel like acting happy either. So rather not go meet them. So I stay at home. But there wasn't a minute I'm free. Bury myself in doing my Jap project. My only problem now is I can't print the pictures out in the right colour :( Stupid printer... Oh well... Got to think of something. Feels so hot.. Have been sweating the whole day even thought I'm wearing a spagit. strip blouse... My dear... Have been sweating like nobody business... In the early evening, suddenly got the urge to touch my organ... Actually, I play it when I'm not feeling very good. Kind of makes me feel better. That's why I like music. Haha.. The song on the blog.. Well yar.. It's one of the song I play. Dunno why can't record the background song in too.. Maybe too soft.... Got to go fix that part. Haha.. Not nice right? =x Anyway, I was playing ballade four adeline. quite a famous song. but I just can't get it right.. Then my mother call and told me that my aunt's printer out of ink.. She can't help me print my pictures either... Haiz.. make me do so much extra work den tell me no ink.. What the freaking hell!!! Then was so angry and sad. With that feeling, went back to play ballade four adeline. Woah surprising... I played correctly... But with a angry tone which isn't right.. Because Ballade four adeline is kind of a smooth song ba... Haiz... It's 8.45 now. Mother just got home. She manage to get my pictures printed out *phew* Thanks alot mum :) I owe you one.
-------------------------------------------------------------------- What will you do if one day, you suddenly felt so helpless? What will you do if one day, saddness suddenly occur in you? What will you do if you can't believe the fact that you couldn't bare to hear your friend..? What will you do if everybody turn you down? What will you do if everybody stop you from getting your happiness? Haiz...
I'm more happy than I ever am. Though knowing what I'm doing is not right. And it isn't good for both parties... But I AM very HAPPY now. Never as happier as before. But people around me... Doesn't agree to me... Why? Why can't you people understand what I'm feeling..? After so many years of thinking for others. Putting others before self, always apologising for people, finally I start to think for myself... But what do I get? Disagreement... I don't see why I should live in a world where I have to give way to everybody and do what is good to others even if it harms yourself. There bonds to be a way... A way to make both parties happy... I'll swear that if there really isn't a way, I'll give in and let the other party happy.
--------------------------------------------------------------------- Sorry kor, Sorry dear for bothering you 2 so early in the morning... 2+ 3+ I think... I'll solve that problem myself :)
Just wandering about tomorrow.. A lab interview... A presentation which I'm not prepared... What am I going to do? But for one I know. Get my thoughts right and bring a smile :)
Hehe.. My principals: -Your feeling affects people around you. -Do not think about other things. Concentrate on what is before you. If you ever want to think, leave it to the end of the day. -Do not bring much trouble to others *Working on this* -Don't believe in everything you hear. -Try to make everybody around you happy *Working on this* -Learn to accept all that is given to you -Nobody is perfect. -Never try to change a person. Look at the person for who she is. Not what what she is. -There is no criteria needed in a friend. -Do what's good for others and self. -Put others before self. -Be responible -Do not try to seek pity. If you think you are pity, think of a way and make yourself not a pity person. -Speak up for yourself -Never be afraid to ask... -Do not do anything silly/crazy *Failed =X*
Well, logging. If you manage to read till here. *WOAH~* Congratulation~ you have finish reading an essay. HAha.. Ok.. Trying to be sheep... But how can a kuku turn into a sheep? *Hmmm...* 9.05 now...
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